I remember!

I remembered why I don't want school to start. I don't know how to function in a social setting... especially one like today. I wish I was with like minded people... I have nothing in common with a lot of these people. I look at them with blank stares because they are off having conversations about things I don't know anything about.  I obviously am too judgmental, and I know that... I need to work on it. I need to work on a lot of stuff; but who doesn't?

Maybe being back with people that I'm friends with will get me in a better mood. Or maybe I'm not the "leadership" type. I'd like to be, it's just the people I can't break through to. I'm kind of just shy, and I have nothing to say. I like watching, and I like listening. And then I feel awkward, because those kids aren't the watching and listening kind, and I feel weird being the only one not talking. Maybe the next few days will help me get better. I sure as hell hope so.

I need to be better, do better, feel better.