I'm not okay.
What have I done?
I feel like I can't breathe, or think, or move.

Why I'm a Feminist.

I am a feminist because I believe that women should be able to walk around at night without having to hold their keys as a weapon.
I am a feminist because I don't think men should have to pay for women every time we go on a date.
I am a feminist because enjoying sex doesn't make me dirty, or unworthy of love, despite what society tells me.
I am also a feminist because if I want to save my virginity till marriage, that's badass, too! And no one should call you a prude.
I am a feminist because I shouldn't have to be a barbie if I don't want to, and you shouldn't have to be a G.I. Joe if you don't want to, either. (Of course, if that's what you aspire to be, more power to you! :D)
I am a feminist because people still ask what rape victims were wearing.
I am still a feminist because when my friends and I are run into by people, somehow the first thing out of our mouths is "Sorry".
I am a feminist because I am unable to sleep at night unless my stomach fat is tucked into my shorts, because despite how many times I tell myself that I am beautiful, I can't seem to shake the idea that I am unworthy of love if my body isn't flat, curvy, smooth, hairless, and poreless.
I am a feminist because men should be able to acknowledge when another man is attractive without have to preface it with"no homo".
I am a feminist because feminine is not equal to weak.
I am a feminist because showing emotion doesn't make you any less of a man.
I am a feminist because there is so much false advertising about contraception, and such poor sex education in our schools. (Did you know a woman's first time isn't suppose to bleed, or hurt? Yeah, me neither. )

I am NOT a feminist because I hate men.
I am not a feminist because I want to ignore biology, and say that men and women are physically equal. We aren't. Most men are physically more capable than women, there are many exceptions to this rule, of course, but much of the time they are.
I am not a feminist because I "want revenge" for the wrong doings women have had done to them in the past.
I am not a feminist because I hate motherhood, and domesticity, and families. You want to be a stay at home mom? YAY! You want to be a stay at home dad? AWESOME!
I am not a feminist because I am a hairy lesbian. I am a feminist, however, because people think the worst thing you can call a woman is a hairy lesbian.
I am not a feminist because I want to reverse the power structure of society.


All I want is for everyone, regardless of sex, race, religion, career, gender, or sexuality, to be able to express themselves without fear of being ostracized, hurt, or laughed at.

MORAL OF THE STORY: You do you, and don't let society tell you you how you need to be. Anyone who doesn't love you for who you are doesn't need to be in your life.

OH MY FUCKING GOD.

I'M SO FUCKING DONE WITH WHITE, STRAIGHT, PRIVILEGED FUCKING MEN.


SHUT THE FUCK UP.
YOU'RE SO WRONG.

CALM DOWN, DAPHNE.

My anxiety is become debilitating. Having panic attacks are literally the worst things to ever happen.

Low day.

I am having a really low day here at college. I'm just feeling like it is exactly the same as high school, except with 14,000 people not to be my friends. And it's not their fault, I'm not expecting them to all come rushing towards me and befriend me.

I'm just SO fucking anti-social. I literally took a 15 walk across campus just to get coffee by myself. Everywhere I look there are people surrounded by all their new friends. How the fuck do they do that?! I've been out of my dorm. I've went around and introduced myself to all my dorm mates. I feel fucking emotionally drained from trying to be outgoing. I'm not outgoing.

I have to keep trying. Because someone is going to be just as lonely as me, but equally as awesome.
If you would have talked to me last night, I would be have been much more the optimist.

A year from now, we'll all be gone.

I miss you. Yesterday was really hard for me... because I know it's probably the last time I'm going to see you, and we didn't even say hello.

I really hope things are going well for you. I always do.

Maybe I'll forget about you when I move away. Maybe that's for the best... I can see you have.

Even though I have a strong feeling, I hope you have fun with... nevermind... I can't even type it.


I'm so scared, and I wish I could talk to you. You've always been a good person to talk to.
Can you please just get wasted and call me, again? I want to say goodbye, and I want to talk to the you who's willing to talk to me like nothing ever happened.

Goodbye.

I mourned the loss of my high school career... until I realized I wouldn't miss most of the people.

I wouldn't miss 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, lunch, or 5th.

The only thing I would miss would be drama (well... and the snack bar brownies, but that's probably for the best)

And when I say drama, I mean fineman. I mean the greenroom. I mean Jesse, Ho-Jon, Joselly, Holly, Kaleb, Amanda, Sabryna, Chrissy, Casey, Mae Mae, Bim, Brandon, Roy, Tyrone, Ashley, and all the wonderful people I've met along the way.


But I wouldn't miss the bullshit.
And that's all I'm going to say.
I know what that means.
And nobody else needs to.