CALM DOWN, DAPHNE.

My anxiety is become debilitating. Having panic attacks are literally the worst things to ever happen.

Low day.

I am having a really low day here at college. I'm just feeling like it is exactly the same as high school, except with 14,000 people not to be my friends. And it's not their fault, I'm not expecting them to all come rushing towards me and befriend me.

I'm just SO fucking anti-social. I literally took a 15 walk across campus just to get coffee by myself. Everywhere I look there are people surrounded by all their new friends. How the fuck do they do that?! I've been out of my dorm. I've went around and introduced myself to all my dorm mates. I feel fucking emotionally drained from trying to be outgoing. I'm not outgoing.

I have to keep trying. Because someone is going to be just as lonely as me, but equally as awesome.
If you would have talked to me last night, I would be have been much more the optimist.

A year from now, we'll all be gone.

I miss you. Yesterday was really hard for me... because I know it's probably the last time I'm going to see you, and we didn't even say hello.

I really hope things are going well for you. I always do.

Maybe I'll forget about you when I move away. Maybe that's for the best... I can see you have.

Even though I have a strong feeling, I hope you have fun with... nevermind... I can't even type it.


I'm so scared, and I wish I could talk to you. You've always been a good person to talk to.
Can you please just get wasted and call me, again? I want to say goodbye, and I want to talk to the you who's willing to talk to me like nothing ever happened.

Goodbye.